A.D.H.D.

A few months ago I was diagnosed with ADHD, which has been a mixed bag of emotions for me. It explains a lot, but raises a lot of new questions. Mostly though, I have been asking myself "where do I go from here?"

Lots of people have recommended that I try medication. I don't know that I'm ready for that yet. I'm afraid of changing who I am. It's been medically established that I'm wired differently, but does that necessarily mean I'm wired wrong? I believe that God made me this way for a reason. It might not always mesh with society, but I like who I am. I honestly do. I'm afraid pills could change that.

The more I research, the more I'm convinced that ADHD is not so much as a curse but a gift with some side-effects. As I look at the literature and symptom descriptions, I realize that a lot of what I love about life comes from being wired this way. It's not just the reason I have trouble focusing, it's the reason I hyperfocus. It's the reason I draw ALL THE TIME. It's the reason I love new experiences and why I can turn an ordinary day into an adventure. It's the reason I stay up all night writing, it's God's way of giving me an irrepressible, non-stop source of creativity. If you have ADHD, I would highly recommend re-evaluating what that means to you. You've been told what you aren't, what you can't do, what your limitations are. Now ask yourself- what CAN I do? What AM I? What are my UNlimitations?

Luvs,

Josh